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Reflection: Love is...

Finding forgiveness even when you don't deserve it, when there are no words to say something important, it speaks volumes, when a simple smile, turns into a hearty laugh behind the innocence of a young child's embrace, promises left broken to friends that were not meant to be wronged. But behind these mysteries, lies God's unchanging hand. The power and might of one that is completely in charge is gentle and soft to the touch...
Satan is described by Christ as one who "steals, kills and destroys". He really did try this past month. To steal my family from me, To kill my hope of having hope, and to destroy any kind of love that I have for anything. He tried. Boggles my mind to think that such a being could even fathom to do such a loathesome act. So I feel sorry for him. Because if he simply just listened, reacted as he was supposed to, none of the BAD things would be upon him. 
I feel that God is truly showing me just how much he loves me. Not that he hasn't before, but it feels so subtle.... First by entrusting all of my mom's health issues, although they are not through completely, God is a healer, and restorer of all things broken. To entrust your faith in the likes of man, is nothing. Satan tried to use this to persuade me, that if only we trust this doctor, everything would be fine, it really wasn't all that. All of Dr. Gonzalez's work as a doctor, his life that lead him to meeting with us, and exercising the ability to perform surgery on my mom, was indeed God's doing. All his tedious work as a neurosurgeon, his love of learning, and exploring and correcting, and restoring families, is totally God given. Then, to work in a miracle in itself, when the impossible seemed so vast a distance from here to timbucktoo, it is God's revealing grace that everything works for a higher purpose than our own puny thoughts.
The God of the world, had in mind for us, moments to sway us, even since the start of time, ways to sway things that will be so fantastic, and out of the ordinary, we are completely unable to fathom its greatness and vibrancy because of our humanistic nature. But Jesus said, I have overcome the world, so that you might live. So it is. I live by his love for me. I live and love, and have a heart for loving because he has created in me, the ability to see another as they perceive themselves. But regardless of the output, we are called to living such arduous, incompatible lives because we can not comply to the worldly standards enforced by the world alone. Just because we are human does not make it right to live to live. We should strive to live, a life dedicated to mirroring the footsteps of Christ, so that in our daily provisions as sons of man, we can at least devote that portion of ourselves in willingness, and aptitude though we fall miserably short.

The love of family, the love of friends, the love of neighbors, and the love of strangers.  All encircle the fact that it remains, you still receive something at the end of the circle. That is, it benefits to your gain, that this outwardly gesture you position yourself to, clings to a hope, of finding love, of acceptance, and profit to your advantage. (this was an excerpt from a sermon recently...) 

Even though I do not know what is to come, I am still so grateful thatGod hears me. My prayer usually starts this way: Father forgive me for all the wrongs that I have placed between you and I. There is no reason to justify all of it, but simply, I beg that Jesus is enough to cleanse me of my sins. so I repent to you, with everything I hold inside of me, forgive me Father, for my sins, and remember them not any longer.  so I thank you, for hearing me, in this moment and for its future.

Thank you for everything. For my kids, my husband, & my family who love me, my friends who also show me that they love me,  for giving me a vision to walk to, and a passion for understanding what I lack most, which is everything...

I love you O lord my strength, with all that is truly within me. May I bless you all the time and I pray that praise never part my lips...

In Jesus Precious Name

Amen.