the secret to it all

It is that time of the year again, when the hustle and bustle of getting ready for the holidays draws ever so close with each passing weekend, and the boisterous ruckus that comes about from the sticky sugar coated goodness of carols being blasted from grocery stores, shoe stores, clothing stores, one stop shopping stores... stores everywhere, target shopaholic holiday fiends like myself, into buying more things for more people, just because, its the holidays.

In the last few weeks, I have had such a huge hurdle with personal matters. Things that I thought were not very important, all of the sudden, overwhelmed me at times, and I found myself, curled into a pitiful ball, at the mercy of my own careless mind,  shouting, why, why, why, instead of because because because...

 It is because, of His grace, It is because of His mercy, It is because He first loved us, and not because we center ourselves around wanting to know why.  It doesn't matter why, or how come. What matters is that life is, life will always be, in God's hands no matter what.  How we choose to exhale the blessings he's enveloped us with having, is a different story.

 So,out of foolishness, and mindless chatter, I found myself, clung to the old rugged cross, where my every heartache, my every hurdle of anxiety, depression, and fear, was lifted to an all knowing Savior, and it is only now that I understand, Have no fear, Jesus is Here really means what it says. 

I know I don't make any sense, I suppose I am only venting in part because I have wasted so much energy and time trying to focus my life on things that were truly trivial to start with.  

 Ay... Anyways. Have faith in all that you do. Try not to let Satan deceive you. Though it is quite enticing.

 I'll write more when the time is right. I just wanted to write something in the mean time. 

Be strong and know, God is real. God loves, God lives, God speaks, God listens, God sees. 

Through all these actions, his omnipresence is ever upon us. 

 Ok, more later~~~

your cuckoo friend,

me